I was going to make this whole suicide thing last a week, but I decided not to because I figured it would probably worry some people.

No, I did not kill myself. I didn't even try and would never try. I did so because I wanted to get the shock factor. I wanted to see who would actually respond. Who would ask me, "What happened?" I just wanted to see. I noticed that those I do speak to, said something almost write away upon me stating that I didn't die and saying stuff about me just coming out of the hospital.

Yes, it was a fucked up thing to do, but I was testing people. I was trying to find out who are the ones to respond right away, and who are not the ones. I wanted to just pull a Tupac and pretend to fake my own death.

I apologize to those who asked me what happened. Who showed concern, I did mean to put you through that. I can't say I didn't, otherwise I would have never had done it. I do apologize though, it won't happen again.

To everyone else, seriously though. If people who don't normally talk to me, talk to me now via myspace, and actually say something because of my lame ass suicide attempt. Whatever, thanks for actually noticing me AFTER this attempt.

Anyways, I apologize for this. I have my darker side and like to let it out at the expense of others for personal pleasures.

Anyways, don't hate me. Just continue to care. Care about those you are closest to, hug them and never let go. Let them know how much you care. You never know what could happen to those care about. They could just be taken away from you in an instant.

Peace be with all of you, and all that jazz.

Alan.

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