I found this star on the floor of my biology classroom. I deemed it my lucky star! It's cute and tiny!

Alright, so work today was short and sweet. It consisted of running errands by driving around to pick stuff up. It was quite nice! I was invited to go somewhere tonight, but I'd not do much tonight. I want to go home and just relax, but I'm here at Darrio's so I'll relax here instead.

School's going good, I'd like to think so. I need to make sure to get some homeworks done. In fact, maybe I'll do some tonight. Like my math homework, but I'm tired!

I can haz a break? Nope...

Today is my first day, of what? Well we will see. Wish me luck!

As far as everything else goes, I had a great workout at the gym this morning. The test I had last night was easy since we were able to form groups and take the test together. Actually, yesterday was a pretty nifty day and I'm sure today is going to be just as nifty. I feel so cute and professional today!

Anyhoo, I'm in class, or at least waiting for class to start and the internet at home is being weird so here I am! My tummy is bugging me though, oh well.

Today I got my teeth cleaned! The hygienist said my teeth are looking great! No issues, yay!

Today I have a test in my comm. class, crap.
As far as anything else goes, it's REALLY windy and things are blowing everywhere.

I need to finish getting ready.
That is all.

I finally have a Halloween costume picked out. I'm going to be me, only me of the past! I do wonder from time to time, how would I dress or act if I lived back in the 20s or even several years before that. Of course, I don't expect myself to have had the nicest of clothes but hey in my reality I was a rich bitch.

Today is Monday, I'm up and ready to go. I ate a breakfast consisting of a protein shake, apples, and vitamins. Yeah, we're low on food in the house and won't be grocery shopping until we move into the new house. I have my gym clothes on so I can go later on in the day. I find that I have much more strength later on in the day, then early in the morning.

My tummy hurts...:(

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Seriously, I don't but today I will move some more stuff. Actually, I will move my desk top computer to the new house today. It will suck since my internet is working fine on the desktop, but not working on the wireless side. We shall see how things go! I'll get it fixed, hopefully....

Perhaps this is the time where I'm actually going to sit down and write something decent. I will write an entry that has some depth, some form of information in regards to what I am doing. Will this be the day?

Maybe, we will see after I write this.

Today I spent most of the day lounging around. Seriously, that's all I really did. I do not have any homework this weekend. Well, I have to study for a test on Tuesday but as far as anything else. Well, there's an assignment but we haven't gotten the criteria for it yet. Pretty much, I'm free to lounge around this weekend. I'm glad because this is the first weekend in ages that I've had no homework and no plans to be out of town.

Sure, I would love to be out on the town with my friends right now but I'm going to enjoy this downtime. I can catch up on some shows via Hulu. Seriously, I have been on a Hulu frenzy lately. I'm finally up to date with shows that Darrio has been telling me about.

I am in love with these shows:
- Modern Family
- Eastwick
- Cougar Town (LOVE Courtney Cox)
- Inuyasha: The Final Act
- Dollhouse (Not new, but I do enjoy it regardless of how indifferent it has become)
- And some others I can't think of at the moment.

Sure, I love GLEE. Really, it's a good show but what sucks is that it hasn't really WOWED me. Hate me all you want GLEE fans.

Oh look, Megan Fox is hosting Saturday Night Live. It's the Season Premier? Oh wait, this must be a repeat episode. She's desperately trying to be funny about her nude pictures on the net. Oh goodness.

Alright, onto the picture. This was me before I drove off to the new house. My car doesn't look packed full of my stuff, but it really was. That big yellow thing is the giant banana I had stacked on top of everything. I managed to strip my walls of my photos and scrolls, strip most of my desk, my television area and my frames from my room. So far I have most of my decorations taken over to the new house, plus all my books and DVDs. Now that I think about it, I wonder if my things are safe there. I know we have a security system, but this whole leaving my stuff at the new place is a new thing to me. Especially since I also have my flat screen t.v. there too. I should have taken a picture of my decorated desk, but wanted to wait until it was complete! I'm very proud of the work I've done. It's so college student style. I have my Gundam Wing figures set up alongside a Spiderman figure. Along side those, I have several bears sitting next to each other. All my photos are lined across the top of the desk with my Buddha statue standing right in the middle, watching over my room and bringing peace and serenity. I also have my sake cups and other knicknacks surrounding. I love it! I even have my koi fish scroll hanging on my bedroom door. It's my welcome mat!

Seriously, moving most of this stuff was nothing. I probably won't feel the true effect of moving until I'm actually completely moved in. This all feels so untrue. I know I'm not really making a giant leap in terms of area, but I'm moving into town. I have NEVER lived in town and have NEVER lived in a neighborhood. I'm a country boy who is now moving to town. I never thought this day would happen, but it's finally happening.

This is my first step into moving to a bigger city like S.F. or L.A. I probably wouldn't be able to handle it just yet if I moved from the country straight into city living. This transition is exactly what's needed. Besides, it's time to move on from this. I know the only change is my living situation. I'm usually in town anyway, but I feel like this will bring about some sort of change. There's a reason for everything and I'll figure it out.

Man oh man, I'll stop before I continue rambling.

YES! It's finally happening!

I felt super cute last night and this is why.
It was a good day, today however I'm dealing with neck pain which includes a headache. Ugh, I'm breaking down!

Bio Test - Success (Hopefully)
Math Quiz - Fail

Alright, so today was a good day. I enjoyed it. I mean, I don't know what else to say about it. I went to my classes, hung out and now I'm here at Darrio's hanging out. I'm going out to the bar tonight and going to enjoy it, at least we will see if I ENJOY it.

Okay, so I'm tired and out of it so I'm over this. I'm over writing this at this very second.

It was a good day, simple as that haha.

Oh! This Pikachu stuck by me all day!

Yeah, not really. I just needed a title. It was a good day! I enjoyed it very much so! I didn't get a lot of work done with school, but that's okay. The weekend is almost here. Cheers!

PS: I really like this picture.

It's actually been a very chill day. I'm tired, but chill.

Thanks.

It was a very long day yesterday, good, but long. I got together with my group for a speech that we are presenting tonight in class. I feel like we accomplished a lot!

It was a good day, but I don't know what I can write about it haha

This is a photo taken last night. I put cups on my ears inside my hood and looked like Katamari. I was quite pleased. Also, this photo is a bit eerie. There are people lurking around in the shadows.

These people are working against me. Paranoid? No, I'm not because I'm starting to see things trying to work against me but in this game, I'm the game master so I make the rules.

It's quite a trip!
Anyhoo.
:)

I've decided to stop drinking alcohol. At least for now.
I have my own personal reasons for this, feel free to ask. No, I do not have a drinking problem but I'd like to see just how much of an influence alcohol has in my life. I want to experience my own life as I do now, only to see what it is like minus my consumption of alcohol. Also, my actions under the influence are not what I enjoy doing. My mind is unclear and hazy when I've drunk. I make stupid decisions. My speech slurs and that's something I absolutely dislike because I am someone who likes to speak clearly.
Other reasons are for health reasons, I want to see how my health is without any alcohol coming into my body.

Ugh, I want to write about this because I have a lot to write but right now I can't seem to get everything in my head down on here.

I just, well, this is something I want to do. For myself. Thanks.

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Today was spent working on part of my group project and spending money for stuff for the new house. I also indulged on delicious sweets!

This is me inside the van with a hard hat on. I felt very rough and tumble status with a gay flare. Oh lord, look at me.

It's done. Over. Done deal.
My math test didn't go so well.
So I'm upset over that, but life goes on. I'm really just....
There's always a light and I'm walking towards it.

I've said that someone else was bitter and obsessed when I myself have acting in the similar manner of which I pointed a finger to. I have continued to discuss it and tried to get others involved in order to gain more strength on my side. I cannot deny that because it's obvious and clear in my eyes now. I have lied, but been truthful. I do not lie about the situation at hand, but perhaps I lied on my own behalf of my actions. I have said I hated, but I no longer hate. I have said so many things that I have later wanted to take back.

I'm totally not perfect, but I know what is right and what is wrong. My own actions have lead to an escalation of a situation into hostile territory.

I'm sorry, it's done.


I have something else to say, but sometimes things are best left unsaid. I have other things to worry about in my life.

It's day 100 and it is a beautiful and sunny day!

Alright, so today is no real big business except for school stuff BUT I have some interesting tid bits that are quite disappointing. Why? Well, I do not understand why someone would continue to spread poison about me to my family members.

I have an ex, who I have apologized to for everything. I mean, I could even still be friends with him because I want to move forward rather than stay in the past. Like I said, I apologize for everything and USED to fell guilty. I say USED to because the more he continues to hold on to the bitterness, the less I care. WELL, my cousin informs me about the things he told her recently. How I'm dead to him, how I try to invite his 52 year old friend to lunch (which I did, but because I was just reaching a hand out to friendship, her and I were cool but oh well) and that I steal styles from people. Like I stole the style of wearing a sweater with no shirt under it from him, plus getting all ghetto and wearing a bandanna under my hat like Carlos and so I MUST have a fat boyfriend because I've gained 15 pounds and he says it's because I'm trying to copy my boyfriend. Say what? I talk about this to vent, I'm more or less disappointed then irritated. By the way, I've actually gained around 10 pounds and am damn proud of it. Why would I let myself become insecure about my weight? I'm healthy so who cares if I have fat. Fat is there for a reason anyway. Plus, the more people try to bruise my self esteem by commenting on my weight gain, the less I'm inclined to care about my weight in general. It's not always about weight, can't a guy have a killer personality over a killer body? I think they can!

I've been learning a lot of things lately from my friends. I've had them stop me in my tracks and tell me to cut the shit and I'm starting to do that. I was told recently by a great friend of mine, "People like you for you, not for an image you're trying to portray". True words spoken. I'm done lying (which I haven't lied HUGE lies, but a small one or two that could have become bigger), I'm done trying to impress people, I'm over obsessing over my weight when I should exercise and eat right and just LIVE my life, and I'm over the problems people try to unload on others.

One thing I want to say before I end this.

I am the greatest, but not really...well you know what, I am pretty great. In my book I am and I believe everyone should believe they are great in their own books too. We are all the creators of our own destiny and do what makes us happy, if that's not a great person then I don't know what is.

Final Note:

"Why you so obsessed with me?"

So Oh Oh So Ohhh
Will the real MC please step to the mic?
MC- You need an MC, place to be
MC the MC

All up in the blogs
Say we met at the bar
When I don't even know who you are
Say we up in your house
Sayin' I'm up in your car
But you in LA but I'm out at Jermaine's

I'm up in the A- you're so so lame
and no on here even mentions your name
It must be the weed, it must be the E
cuz you be poppin, hood, you get it poppin'

Ooh boy why you so obsessed with me?
Boy I want to know- lyin' that you're sexin me
when everybody knows it's clear that you're upset with me
Ohh finally found a girl that you couldn't impress
Last man on the earth- still couldn't get this

You're delusional, you're delusional
Boy you're losing your mind
It's confusin yo, you're confused you know
Why you wasting your time?
Got you all fired up with your Napoleon complex
See right through you like you're bathin' in windex

Ooh Ohh Ohh boy why you so obsessed with me?
And all the ladies sing, all the girls sing
Soo Oohhhh Soo Oohh Obsessed

You on your job, you hittin' hard
Ain't gon feed you, gon' let you starve
Graspin' for air I'm ?
You out of breath, hope you ain't waitin
Tellin' the world how much you miss me
But we never were so why you trippin'
You a mom and pop, I'm a corporation
I'm the press conference, you a conversation

Ooh boy why you so obsessed with me?
Boy I want to know- lyin' that you're sexin me
when everybody knows it's clear that you're upset with me
Ohh finally found a girl that you couldn't impress
Last man on the earth- still couldn't get this

You're delusional, you're delusional
Boy you're losing your mind
It's confusin yo, you're confused you know
Why you wasting your time?
Got you all fired up with your Napoleon complex
See right through you like you're bathin' in windex

Ooh Ohh Ohh boy why you so obsessed with me?
And all the ladies sing, all the girls sing
Soo Oohhhh Soo Oohh Obsessed

And boy do I love them! I almost lost my umbrella though!

I'm sitting here in my last class of the day, waiting around and working on some stuff here on the interwebs. I have to update! Upload and etc. Plus study, which I should start very soon! Goodness gracious! I'll go do that now.

Hope you all are enjoying the windy rain!

Monday, it was time for Steven and I to head back. We got back at midnight. We stopped in LA to have late lunch with Tim and David. Ah! I loved it and was excited to see David again and meet Tim!

The trip to San Diego was fun, the Rockstars may not have won but they had great games! I was the morning coffee run boy. Man, the nights were tiring. All day out and about and then to go out, Steven and I usually ended up coming back early because of it.

All in all, there was fun times had. There was a lot of sushi, new people, and new experiences. Like someone peeing on the floor next to our bed. HA!

Alright, so today is Tuesday. I decided to skip my first class and I'm considering skipping the rest of the day. I did tell my teachers that I may not be there today cause of San Diego and I'm thinking of using this time to catch up on reading and study for a Math test tomorrow. I usually don't do anything on the weekends because I go out of town or I forget so my weekdays are far more productive. I'll update later, I should start!

Steven kept taking pics of me like this throughout the weekend. This was Saturday. I was beat!